Today is 6 months since I lost the one person I knew would always love me unconditionally and support me and my best source of advice! I said good bye to my mom, and as much as I know she loved me, it doesn't much help! I miss her so much, and to see how much my girls miss her, it breaks my heart worse. Then to hear and watch my dad's heart ache, it's just too much! Don't let anyone say time heals! My Momma taught me, time never heals, it only becomes easier to cope with, and it's so true!!! And then there are days it's not easy and it's pure hell!!!! Today we went to Church at their Church, and it was my first time to go for Service since the day before we lost Momma, and yet, it was so hard, I needed her! I wanted her! And I know she was looking down, but I sure did need her! Then we had a cookout and I wanted her to be the one to be cutting up the veggies and not me, because it was always what she did. She liked to do it, and did it perfectly!!! So I cried and then tonight I just can't keep it in! I am a mess!!!!
Momma, we love you and miss you so much! But are so thankful for everything you did for all of us! You are the BESTEST!!!!!!
Hugs and Blessings,
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Today makes 6 months
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Aw, hang in there sweetie. There will be good days and bad days. You are right that time doesn't heal. The pain will always be there and it will surface at unexpected times. I once saw a lady in a store wearing a shirt just like one my Mom had and I just wanted to burst into tears! It does get easier after a while, a long while.
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