It's been an emotional time here lately. We have been busy with getting every thing to the final stages for the adoption, and with each moment, we feel we are closer, it has not been the case! But I have been reminded that I'm blessed! And these girls are the kids I prayed for, I asked God for these girls, I even told him I'd love a child with special needs, a child others would not want, a hard to handle whild child, and that I would do my best to teach them by loving them unconditionally!!! And even when my days are chaos and busy, and not just the perfect plan, that at that moment, I want, they are the most wonderful and blessed days, because I have been given a gift, that only God can give me! I'm a mommy! Medically there is no way, It was all removed when I was still in my twenties, and to many around me, they felt I'd never get to be a Mom, the only thing I ever really wanted! And I knew deep down, that God loved me so much, and that in his time and his plan, he would grant me the desires of my heart! And he did!!!
1 Samuel 1:27 "For this child I prayed; and the LORD hath given me my petition which I asked of him:".
This is just how it is, he did, he gave me 2 beautiful girls, just like I always wanted! He gave me my first born to be my mini me and love racing, cooking, crafts, and all the things her moma does, yet to have a heart of gold, and be full of witt and humor, like no other! She is charming, and so very creative and yet so logical! A great narrator! Every night she makes up her own story to tell me, before bed, and it's the BEST! Then he gave me a sweet loving very hyper and often rowdy cutie pie! My little climbing monkey! A lover that is so full of mischief that it ammuses me! The baby in all aspects! (just the way I wanted her to be). She lives up to her name daily! *grins* And to many, they look at our family and are so
bold, as to ask me, do you regret adoption, since your girls are a bit hard to handle? Do you regret going through this the 2nd time, since it's drug out and so very stressful? Do you realize they are going to have the genetics of the biological family, and this can lead them right down the road, their bio mom lives? and much much more! So this is for all those! They do have the genetics of their biological family, and let me tell you, I couldn't be more excited! They are princesses, not only mine, but to the highest of all Kings!!!! Yes, they do have some mighty biological genetics that make these innocent precious girls up!!!! Do I regret going through this very so long process? NEVER, are you kidding me! Yes some days it's not the way I want it to go, I would very much have loved for it to be final by now, but it's all part of a plan, and I have the BEST prize, my daughter, so really how could I regret this?! And how could I regret adopting my girls, they are the children I prayed for, the chilldren God gave me, (in answer to the prayers I prayed), they are choicen! And really can you tell me that by giving birth to them, it makes them any better or different, than my girls? I don't think so! So I ask this, why are adopted children labeled by the public? Why is it seen in such a negative light? As hubby and I have told many people, our gift couldn't be better! Because God trusts us to raise these girls, he removed them from a harmful situation, and blessed us beyond, with them! He is letting us be their Earthly parents, as he is everyone of ours Heavenly Father! And wow, I'm so thankful he is!!!! So for us, to be trusted by him to adopt to precious girls, (Just like Joseph did Jesus), how could we have any regrets!!! Yes I have my opinions on the 2 very different routes we went through, and I have my frustrations with the system, but in no way do I regret adopting them! .... And what is ringing on everyones mind now (and been asked by many), are we complete as a family yet? How much more will you go through, can you really handle the stress to go throught the process again????.... All I can say is, only God has the answer! If he wants to give us more children, he will! And as for the route we go, it will be left up to him! But I am happy! I'm happy and thankful for what I have, and I don't have search or seek for more children to grow our family. It's totally in the hands of my Lord, and I trust him all the way!
I have promised to do all I can for my daughters, and for the moment I want them to Be little! I want them to be kids, and be innocent! I want them to have hope and faith, and praises each day, and I want them to know that no matter what, they have our unconditional love!!!! I want them to know, we will be there for them every step of the way! I want to be the parents, just like my parents are!!! And I pray each day, that we will be! Girls, mommy loves you, more than you can ever imagine! There is nothing in this world that will EVER change this! I don't care what you become, I just want you to stay true to who you are, keep your eyes on God, and keep the love in your heart, and then you will be just fine!!! I love you both so very much!!!!!
Hugs and Blessings,
Lil E found her a lady bug!! She loves lady bugs, just like her momma! A true sign of spring! Thank you, God, for all the beautiful Spring wonders you give us!!! 
Lil E found her a lady bug!! She loves lady bugs, just like her momma! A true sign of spring! Thank you, God, for all the beautiful Spring wonders you give us!!! 
