WOW, I can’t believe it’s been 2 years

 

2 years ago today, my Momma grew her heavenly wings! She had wings here on earth, they just weren't seen so to speak, but felt by many.  I never knew a person could hurt so bad and so much, as I do. A Void that no one else can ever fill.  Some days are more bearable, and others are not so. What I wouldn't give for some more time with her.  She was the GREATEST Momma and Mamaw!!! She is the reason I am who I am today. She is also the reason I always wanted to be a stay home mom. I wanted to do what she did. I hope, that I can have half as much of an impact on my babies, as she did me! She was so much to me! I miss the nightly good night phone calls, I miss the good morning, how are you feeling today calls. I miss calling her and asking her how to do something or make something. I miss picking up the phone when I was mad at James or frustrated with the kids, and she would be able to calm me right away, like NO ONE else can! Or when I needed someone to just listen! She was the best listener! I miss our late nights playing games. Or clearance shopping! Btw, I did a little of that today. I have this dear friend (Deanna) who reminds me of my mom in some ways, well her and the girls and I had lunch and went out clearance shopping. I did find me a few tops. I said, I shopped this way today, just like my Momma would have. She taught me well. I miss so much, the little things the most! Like just chilling out! We had a great time together! And she was the GREATEST person I have ever known! She loved my girls like no one else (besides hubby and myself). I miss the closeness she and James had. She was the Momma he never really had. She taught him lots, and they had a special bond. When he was working nights, and she would get up in the middle of the night for a potty break, she would often call him. Those calls would be so simple and caring and go something like this “I was just calling to see if you were doing ok. If you are getting sleepy I can talk to you.” Sometimes it would be brief, and others they would talk for awhile. The girls miss calling her and being so silly! She was fun and would do the silliest things with the kids, heck with us all! From singing crazy songs, or dressing up silly, or letting you put 50 pony tails in her hair (that’s where Lil E gets it), or maybe the time she put all the birthday hats on her head and around it at once. She is one of a kind! She is a RARE and special gem!

 

Today not only did us girls do some shopping, but we celebrated her life at dinner time, but talking about our favorite memories and such. Each one of us talking about things. It was teary and happy! It really beautiful. I want the girls to know as much about her as possible.

 

I am thankful she is out of pain and able to rock the babies, her precious great grandsons and her first born beautiful daughter. Who were all there waiting to greet her two years ago. But I would so much prefer her to be here with us! I have a promise to see her again, and oh what a day it will be!! And I’m thankful for this gift of salvation, and ever lasting life I have waiting for me, because of our Savior Jesus Christ.

 

Momma there isn't a day that I don't wish for you to be here with us! You are the most awesome and wonderful person! There is so much I want to call you on the phone and tell you. Well I tell you lots now, but I wish I could hear you for real, not just know what you would say.  Thank you for being all you were to all of us. And for loving my babies the way you did. Thank you for teaching me so much and guiding me through life. I can't imagine where I'd be today, if it wasn't for you. I find myself more and more like you every day, and I thank you for this! It makes me so proud to be like you!! I strive to be like you, and to keep your memory alive with the girls, especially K Bugs. She was only 2 years old, you know just the age I was when Memaw passed and you kept Memaw alive so well for me. And it helped. So I hope that I can do the same for K Bugs. You are always with me, in my heart, but I want all the little ones to really know you. Not just a vage memory. I really do, strive to be like you! You are in all our hearts forever! And Missed more than words can say. I thank you so much for instilling in me to never give up, and that I could do anything! Thank you for loving and helping James the way you did. You are the BESTEST Ever!!!! WE love you so much!!!! Always and Forever!!!!! I love you Momma!!!! I miss you!!! I love you!!!!

 

Hugs and Blessings